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Navigating Heartbreak: Women Ending Relationships in Their 30s and 40s

So, let’s talk about something that often gets swept under the rug: women in their 30s and 40s calling it quits on relationships when they still want kids. It’s a complex scenario, and trust me, it’s about way more than just the guy they’re with.

First off, let’s acknowledge the ticking biological clock. For many women, the pressure starts to mount as they hit their 30s. They see friends settling down, having babies, and suddenly the dream of a nuclear family feels like it’s slipping through their fingers. It’s no wonder that the idea of a breakup can feel like a double whammy—losing a partner and potentially missing out on motherhood. The emotional stakes are high, and the fear of running out of time can make the decision to end things all the more heart-wrenching.

Now, why do women often romanticize a relationship or an ex, even if things weren’t all sunshine and rainbows? It’s like there’s this weird filter that kicks in, making even the crummiest moments seem golden in hindsight. Maybe it’s because when you’re staring down the possibility of being single and childless, your mind starts to fill in the gaps. You start to think about the “what-ifs” and “could-have-beens.” It’s easier to hold onto a flawed relationship than to face the unknown future ahead.

Heartbreak isn’t just about losing a companion; it’s also about mourning the life you thought you were going to have. For many, it’s the dream of family gatherings, birthday parties, and all those small moments that add up to something beautiful. When that vision starts to crumble, it can feel devastating. The emotional weight of that loss is heavy, and it often leaves a lingering ache that’s hard to shake off.

There’s also the societal pressure. People often ask when you’re going to settle down or have kids, and that can amplify feelings of inadequacy. Ending a relationship can feel like you’re not just breaking up with a partner; you’re also letting go of the dream of a family. It’s a tough pill to swallow when you realize that the clock is ticking, and you’re standing at a crossroads with some heavy choices to make.

But here’s the thing: choosing to break up is sometimes the bravest thing you can do. It’s about acknowledging that the current situation isn’t going to lead you where you want to go. It’s about saying, “Hey, I deserve to find love that aligns with my dreams.” It’s a tough road, but the hope of finding a partner who shares your vision of the future can make the heartache worth it in the end.

In this wild journey of love, relationships, and dreams of family, it’s essential to honor your feelings and give yourself grace. Yes, the biological clock might be ticking, but remember that every ending can also be a new beginning. Embracing the uncertainty can open doors to opportunities you never even considered. So, while it’s okay to feel heartbroken, it’s also okay to hold onto hope for what’s next.

And here’s the silver lining: women today have a multitude of choices that previous generations didn’t. The landscape of motherhood has expanded, offering paths beyond traditional timelines. Adoption, fostering, and even freezing eggs are all options that allow women to take control of their reproductive journeys. You can build a family on your own terms, whether that means waiting for the right partner or diving into motherhood solo.

So while it’s okay to feel heartbroken, it’s also okay to celebrate the empowerment that comes with these choices. Every ending can lead to a new beginning, and embracing the possibilities ahead can spark hope and excitement. In this era, women can define what family means to them, and that’s something truly worth celebrating.

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The relationship that never was

I’ve always been the kind of woman who believed in love, fairy tale love. But after a string of failed relationships throughout my twenties and into my thirties, I found myself wondering if I’d ever get that storybook ending. At 35, I was beginning to come to terms with the fact that I might be destined for a different path. That was until I met John.

John is my friend’s brother, a handsome man with a charming smile and an impressive job as an executive at a large firm. The moment I laid eyes on him at a barbeque, it was like a light bulb went off. He was everything I thought I wanted, confident, witty, and successful. Little did I know that the connection I felt was a one-way street.

At first, I brushed off my feelings. After all, I was the queen of unrequited love. But the more I saw him, the deeper I fell into my fantasy world. I started weaving elaborate daydreams where John and I were the perfect couple. I envisioned him picking me up after work, before we headed out to a cozy dinner. In my mind, we shared everything from late-night conversations to weekend getaways. I lived for these moments, constructing our “relationship” in vivid detail, even if it existed solely in my head.

Two years flew by in this surreal haze. I created scenarios that played out like scenes from a rom-com. I could practically feel the warmth of his hand in mine as we strolled through the park. John consumed my thoughts and was with me every minute of every day. Every lunch break, every gym session, my mind drifted back to him. I thought about what our future would look like, how he’d propose, and the family we’d have together.

Then came the fateful day at the Christmas markets. I was browsing through the stalls, caught up in the vibrant atmosphere, when I spotted him. My heart skipped a beat. But as I approached, the world around me slowed. There he was, holding hands with a stunning woman. A wave of nausea washed over me as reality crashed in. He smiled at me, genuine and warm, as if we were old friends. “Hey! I’m getting married in two months!” he announced casually, his fiancée beaming by his side.

I felt the ground beneath me shift. The facade I’d built crumbled into dust. I forced a smile and managed a weak “Congratulations,” but inside, I was screaming. The two years of fantasy and longing exploded into anger, sadness, betrayal. How could I mourn someone who had never been mine?

The aftermath was a rollercoaster ride I never signed up for. I went through every stage of grief as if John had really been a part of my life. I cried, yelled, and buried myself in self-doubt. “What was wrong with me?” became a mantra I repeated daily. I tried to distract myself with a few rebound one-night stands, seeking solace in fleeting connections, only to find they left me emptier than before.

My friends didn’t know, how could I tell them I’d been having an imaginary relationship with someone they all know. I felt ridiculous for mourning a relationship that had only existed in my imagination. Yet, there I was, heartbroken over a man I’d never even shared a real conversation with.

Over time, I began to pick up the pieces. I realized that the love I felt for John wasn’t about him; it was about my longing for connection and the fear of being alone. I had built a fantasy to protect myself from the vulnerabilities of real relationships, but in doing so, I had also isolated myself.

As the months passed, I slowly found clarity. I learned to embrace the rawness of my feelings instead of running from them. I started to reconnect with the parts of myself I had neglected, focusing on my passions and friendships. The illusion of John faded into a lesson about self-love and the importance of authenticity in relationships.

I may have lost my fantasy, but in the process, I found a deeper understanding of what it means to truly connect with someone. Love doesn’t always fit the fairy tale mould, and that’s okay. I’m learning to appreciate the messy, beautiful journey of life, one day at a time.

I’m also checking out the apps that promise an attentive AI boyfriend !

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Realizing My Worth

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Hey, I’m Gemma! I just finished my studies and jumped into the busy world of tech, which isn’t exciting, but pays well. I’m here to share something about my relationship with Ross, which started online.

I met Ross on a dating app, and at first, it was fun. We were hanging out, having a good time, and I thought he was really good-looking. But as we started dating, things got complicated.

The more I spent time with Ross, the more I noticed some issues—especially when it came to our physical connection. We had a good vibe, but in the bedroom? Not so much. It was frustrating and made me question my self-worth. With everything being so online and often fake these days, I was trying to figure out what attraction really means.

Being with Ross felt like a mix of compliments and criticisms. He’d say sweet things that made me feel attractive, but I quickly realized his affection was tied to my looks. The smallest imperfections would turn him off. Like if I had one tiny hair on my leg, or if my hair was in a messy bun, or even the cotton sleepwear I wore. Once we kissed passionately and he was turned off when my lipstick got messed up. In those many moments, he would either refuse my advances or stop mid-act, unable to perform. It was such a downer. I couldn’t help but wonder if his attraction was real or just based on this ideal image he had in his mind.

It felt like I was stuck in this cycle where I needed his validation to feel good about myself, which was exhausting.

I strongly hung onto this relationship. Even when I realised that I wasn’t in love with Ross. Even when I admitted to myself that we didn’t have much in common and that at times, I didn’t actually like Ross. Getting Ross to want to sleep with me, and finish the act became the all-consuming validation I needed in my life. This self-destructive behaviour could have gone on forever.

Then, I found something unexpected. While using his laptop, I accidentally accessed Ross’s password manager and found a bunch of subscriptions to porn sites. Talk about a wake-up call. Seeing that list hit me hard. It made me realize he was into these perfect, photoshopped images of women. It got me thinking about our relationship and my own self-image. I wasn’t the issue; it was Ross’s unrealistic expectations.

This moment made it clear that I needed to have an honest conversation about everything. I broke up with Ross that same weekend. The turning point for me was realizing that my worth wasn’t tied to how Ross saw me. I felt this weight lift as I recognized that self-worth comes from within, not from someone else’s opinion.

Now, I want to encourage anyone reading this to reflect on their own worth and not let societal standards mess with their self-image. Recognizing your value is essential for building healthy relationships and finding true happiness. The journey to self-acceptance is powerful, leading to real connections built on genuine self-love.

It’s wild to think about how we’re dealing with a whole generation of guys who have this skewed idea of what women are supposed to be. Thanks to social media and the internet, a lot of them are getting their perceptions shaped by perfect, edited images and unrealistic standards that just don’t exist in real life.

This idealized version of women often comes from places like porn and influencer culture, where everything is filtered and staged. Guys see these images and, without even realizing it, start to believe that’s the norm. It creates this massive disconnect when they encounter real women, who are messy, complex, and beautifully imperfect.

The pressure this puts on women is intense. We feel like we have to measure up to an impossible standard just to be accepted or desired. It’s exhausting and, honestly, pretty damaging.

I’m not fully healed from this experience. I still spend far too long in front of a mirror and spend a lot of money on beauty treatements. But for now, at least, I will recognise a Ross when I meet one, and run a mile!

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When Love Turns Sour

My Breakup Journey

I met Jake at high school, where teenage crushes were everywhere. We were your classic high school sweethearts, bonding over classes, mutual friends, and late-night texts about our dreams.

At first, our romance was full of cute gestures—funny memes sent during class, sweet messages, laughter and kisses. Weekends were spent binge-watching shows, going to school dances, and hanging out at local spots, making memories I’d always treasure.

I still remember that picnic Jake surprised me with, complete with my favorite sandwiches and cupcakes he made from scratch. Those simple moments really captured the essence of our love—passionate yet tender. Our experiences shaped who we were, making our bond a huge part of our lives.

Through the ups and downs of high school, our relationship felt like a safe haven in all the teenage chaos. We supported each other through school stress, family drama, and all the social ups and downs. It wasn’t just a phase; it was a meaningful chapter filled with the sweetness of first love.

As we grew up, the carefree vibe of our relationship started to shift. Adult responsibilities crept in. Jake, who used to be ambitious and driven, started to change. He got into gambling, which messed with his finances and led to some sketchy choices.

What really hurt was how he started preying on vulnerable people. He’d buy cars that had issues, fix them up just enough to hide the problems, and then sell them to unsuspecting buyers—regular folks and first-time car buyers—making a decent profit. It wasn’t just cheating on his taxes; he was ripping off families who were just trying to get a reliable vehicle. The traits I once loved were now overshadowed by this troubling behavior, leaving me confused and disillusioned.

I felt torn between the guy I fell for and the one making choices that clashed with my values. I began questioning our future together, wondering if our love could survive these changes. With all this pressure on me, I hit a crossroads and had to face the tough truth about our relationship.

I found myself in a tough spot, feeling deep love for Jake while grappling with serious ethical concerns about his behavior. The excitement that once filled our relationship was being overshadowed by issues I couldn’t ignore. His dishonesty, especially towards people who trusted him, raised major red flags that I had previously overlooked.

This wasn’t just a passing thought; it became a constant worry. On one hand, I cherished our good times. On the other, the growing gap in our values made me question what we had built together. Each dishonest act felt like a betrayal, and a threat to the dream life I had built in my mind with Jake.

Talking to friends didn’t help much; their opinions only added to my stress. Some said to stick around and help Jake improve, while others stressed the importance of self-respect. Caught between these conflicting views, I stood at a major decision point, unable to ignore the ethical issues overshadowing the love I once cherished.

Breaking up with Jake truly shattered me. I felt completely broken. The sadness hit me hard; I couldn’t eat or sleep, and everywhere I looked reminded me of him. We had grown up together, gone to the same school, and frequented the same neighborhoods, so every street, every corner, felt like a piece of him was still there. It was suffocating.

I struggled to figure out who I was as a single person, separate from being Jake’s girlfriend. It felt like I had lost a part of myself. Familiar routines now felt heavy with memories, making it hard to breathe. The emotional rollercoaster of anger, regret, and sorrow was relentless.

As I navigated through my feelings, I experienced all the stages of grief. Some days were better than others, but I learned that healing takes time. This journey pushed me to reevaluate my needs and who I was outside of my relationship. Setting boundaries and prioritizing my well-being became key parts of my healing process.

Over time, I found comfort in journaling, hanging out with friends, and I took up hiking. These activities helped me process my emotions and rediscover myself. I learned that pain could be transformed into creativity and personal growth. Ultimately, my heartbreak turned into a journey filled with lessons about love, loss, and the strength it takes to heal.

It’s now 15 months since we broke up. I’ve had a rebound relationship which lasted 3 months and helped take my mind off Jake. I am almost healed. Well 90% of the time, I am healed. But all it takes is for our song to play on the car radio, the smell of cupcakes or a message from my cousin, also called Jake, and nostalgia kicks in. It’s no longer a massive punch to the stomach. I could go on for a week without thinking about Jake. Now that’s progress.

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A Breakup Without a Support Network

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Avoiding the Isolation of a Breakup

You may find yourself going through a breakup without a support network. This could be due to the fact that your friends are all common friends, or maybe even your ex’s friends. Maybe you spent so long in the wrong relatiosnhip that you don’t want to hear “I told you so”, from well meaning friends or family, or maybe you have exhausted all goodwill from your social circle by breaking up and making up so many times over the years. Regardless of the reasons, it’s the end of your relationship and you find yourself all alone dealing with one of the most emotionally harrowing experiences humans endure.


One of our community members found herself in a similar situation, having just turned 35, her long term relationship ended, while she had just moved to a foreign country for work, without any friends. By the time the realtionship ended, she had exhausted her long distance friends and family with the break-up and make-up rollercoaster over many years. No one was willingm to lend a sympathetic ear.

She could have crumbled but she didn’t. She went out. To meetups. To socials organised by social groups. She joined City Socialising and Friends in the City. She found many other souls in the same boat, battling the same demons. One of these souls became a life long friend. Looking back now at her life 10 years later, having found love with another partner, and started a family, she looks back and wonders what would had happened to her had she not found the strength to go out and find her support group.


Even when you don’t feel like it. A heartbreak shared is a heartbreak halved. Engage with our community. Submit your own story. Read our articles. Read other community members’ stories. Hire a professional. Join a meetup in your city. Even without the bandwidth to be around people all the time, please ensure there is someone for you, during those times you need to vent.

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Navigating the Pain of Breakups: Understanding Heartbreak and Healing

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Breakups can feel like a whirlwind of emotions—sadness, anger, confusion—all mixed up with memories of what used to be. It’s tough because it’s not just about losing a partner; it’s like losing a whole future you imagined together. That sense of loss can really hit hard.

Even if the relationship wasn’t great, the emotional attachment can linger, making you feel disappointed and regretful. It’s confusing when you know it wasn’t perfect, but you still ache for what was. Plus, little things, like a song or a place, can bring all those feelings rushing back, reminding you of what you’ve lost.

The Physical Side of Heartbreak

Heartbreak doesn’t just mess with your head; it can take a toll on your body too. Many people lose their appetite or feel super tired all the time. It’s hard to stay motivated when you’re emotionally drained. You might even hold onto old stuff from your ex, which just keeps those sad feelings around longer.

And let’s be real: society often pressures us to bounce back quickly, making everything feel even worse. Heartbreak is tough on both your mind and body, so it’s crucial to tackle both.

Coping: Finding the Silver Lining

While heartbreak can feel overwhelming, there are ways to help yourself heal. Talking to friends or family about what you’re going through can lighten the load. You’ll realize you’re not alone in this mess, and sharing can ease your pain.

Spending time outside can also work wonders. Whether it’s a walk in the park or a hike, nature can help clear your head and lift your spirits. Plus, having good friends around who really listen and care can make a big difference.

Don’t underestimate the comfort of pets! Their love can help chase away loneliness. And if you can, a little getaway to a new place can give you a fresh perspective and help you move on from those painful memories.

Moving On: Embracing Acceptance

Healing from heartbreak is tough, but it’s a crucial part of life. Accepting the pain is the first step toward letting it go. It’s easy to feel overwhelmed, but reminding yourself that “this will pass” can really help.

Taking time to reflect on your feelings and what you’ve learned can also boost your resilience. Writing in a journal or meditating can help you process everything. If you’re really struggling, talking to a therapist can provide valuable support.

Remember, healing takes time. The hurt may linger for a while, but it will fade. Engaging in activities you enjoy, leaning on supportive friends, and being open to new experiences can help you move forward.

In short, getting better after a breakup is all about acceptance, self-reflection, and patience. By nurturing positive thoughts, seeking help when needed, and allowing time to work its magic, you can open up to new opportunities and find happiness again.

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The Early Days of a Breakup: The Cold Turkey Approach

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Understanding the Addiction of Relationship Attachment

Emotional attachment in relationships is very similar to substance addiction. Individuals frequently develop profound connections with their partners, which can become a source of comfort and security. Just like substance addiction, love can trigger powerful emotional responses and create a dependency and addiction. After the end of a relationship, the urge to reach out to an ex-partner can feel overpowering, similar to cravings experienced in substance withdrawal.

This is due to the brain’s wiring, where love and attachment release neurotransmitters such as dopamine. The end of a romantic bond can lead to withdrawal symptoms. Feelings of loneliness, anxiety, and even physical discomfort are all standard responses to the end of a relationship. The inability to break off these attachments contributes to a cycle of emotional distress, pushing people toward behaviors that prolong their suffering, such as contacting their ex, which can only invite more pain.

The mental toll of breaking these emotional ties can be substantial. The longing for connection often clouds judgment, leading individuals to overlook the reasons for the breakup. Understanding these psychological dynamics is essential for navigating the no-contact phase effectively. Recognizing the addictive nature of relationship attachment can empower you to foster healthier habits and emotional resilience.

The Importance of Going Cold Turkey

After a breakup, you may find yourself often trying to find excuses to maintain contact with your ex. This is the addiction guilding the behaviour. The ‘cold turkey’ approach, which entails avoiding any form of communication post-breakup, can be particularly beneficial for emotional recovery and self-discovery. Although the immediate aftermath may provoke feelings of loneliness and longing, embracing a complete separation allows for a necessary period of reflection and healing.

Enduring the withdrawal symptoms that accompany the cold turkey method may be uncomfortable, harrowing even, but is ultimately a pathway to personal growth. As you navigate through the pain of separation, you foster emotional resilience and learn to rely on yourself more. This period of solitude encourages introspection, which is going to allow you to rediscover your interests and passions that you may have neglected during the relationship.

Practical Steps to Maintain No Contact

Implementing and maintaining no contact after a breakup can be challenging.. The first step in executing this strategy is to establish clear boundaries. Begin by blocking your ex on social media platforms and your phone. This can prevent the temptation to check their updates or reach out. By removing digital access, you create a sufficient buffer that minimizes emotional triggers and helps in the healing process.

Avoiding places that your ex frequents is another practical step to consider. This could include bars, restaurants, or social spots that hold shared memories. By steering clear of these locations, you diminish the likelihood of unplanned encounters which can be emotionally distressing. Instead, explore new venues, or revisit interests and activities that lie outside of the shared experiences with your ex.

Physical space is vital during the no contact period. Rearranging your living space can psychologically signify a fresh start, while also avoiding reminders. Get rid of photos, momentos and avoid places where you are likely to “run into” your ex. Take heart, this avoidance strategy does not have to last forever.

During this time of no contact, feelings of temptation may arise, prompting you to reconsider your decision. To combat this, consider utilizing journaling or meditation as coping mechanisms. Journaling enables you to articulate your emotions and reflect on your thoughts, providing clarity during confusing moments. Meditation can help you process feelings without judgment.

Adhering to the no contact rule requires strong commitment and deliberate actions. It’s not easy, but you can do it !

Celebrating no-contact and Practicing Self-Reward

An effective method of implementing the no-contact rule is to set a daily goal. Tell yourself: “I am not going to contact my ex today”. The next day, as you wake up, give yourself a reward for succeeding with no contact before. Repeat every day, until the desire to see or hear from your ex starts to diminish. This is the time for self-love and lots of self-rewards.

Consider engaging in small outings that provide joy and distraction from lingering feelings of sadness. These outings can vary from visiting a local park to enjoying a meal at a favorite restaurant.

Practicing self-care is also an essential component of this process. Setting aside time for self-reflection, engaging in activities that bring you happiness, or even dedicating time for meditation can enhance emotional resilience. You are worthy of love.

As you move through this challenging yet transformative journey, it becomes increasingly important to reflect on your personal progress. Encouraging yourself to pause and appreciate the strength you have found in yourself, as one day of no contact, turns into weeks. You’re now on a path toward healthier relationships with both yourself and others.